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Lewis Holmes's avatar

Nailed it Hanna! The relentless swings you describe here resonate so hard. ADHD is indeed a rollercoaster. Before I was diagnosed I didn't even know I'd bought a ticket, and now I'm diagnosed I don't want to get off the ride!

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Hanna Keiner (she/her)'s avatar

Love this, thank you! What do you love about the ride so much that you don’t want to get off? I feel so frustrated by it so often that I’d love to hear are more positive point of view.

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Lewis Holmes's avatar

Oh I'm frustrated by it too, on a daily basis. But it's a part of me, always has been, and I don't want to change anything about myself. So I've gotta try and harness it. The way I see it, that's the ride.

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Hanna Keiner (she/her)'s avatar

Love that perspective! Harnessing it being the ride!

It’s also not lost on me that having a really shitty week resulted in me putting this in words and now it resonates and creates connection.

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Lewis Holmes's avatar

I'm totally here for those connections. I feel like there's so much I can learn from other ADHDers.

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Janelle Hardacre's avatar

"you forget about the hard days, and you fall for this idea that this is you, and this always has and always will be you." THIS PART THOUGH!! I'm too 🫠 to say more. But thank you. Soo relatable

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Hanna Keiner (she/her)'s avatar

right? I am still always surprised when it happens.... thank you for telling me it's relatable - it makes me feel less alone!

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Holly's avatar

Do you believe ADHD is on a spectrum?

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Hanna Keiner (she/her)'s avatar

I see it like it’s explained here: https://www.instagram.com/p/DA60qdbT_RU/?igsh=MWowYjFia3d6OGpmOQ==

And I haven’t thought much about it but I also think it’s not static (hence the roller coaster idea). Some of us may struggle more with internal hyperactivity than others but then there are times when that’s even more heightened, depending on circumstances (environment, emotions, hormones, etc.)

Great question!

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Holly's avatar

Love this. Saved for future reference. I think I have some tendencies for sure.

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Hanna Keiner (she/her)'s avatar

I also really like their affirming language (notice difference vs difficulty for example).

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Ross Wood's avatar

God, you’re a great writer, Hanna. Sometimes it really is like you’re in my head.

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Hanna Keiner (she/her)'s avatar

I don’t know what to say! 🄹 Thank you!

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Dawn-RenƩe Rice's avatar

The rollercoaster of ADHD is a wild ride, indeed!

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HealthFocusedEd's avatar

That sounds like me! I'm glad I'm not a lone with this stuff.

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Jeff Nachtigall's avatar

YES. (to everything but the mascara) šŸ˜‰

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Hanna Keiner (she/her)'s avatar

:) thanks Jeff!

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Morgana Clementine's avatar

This is the most accurate description of ADHD I've read! Literally on top of the world today after several days of drudge. It feels like I could take on the world - but I know better now ;) And for those of us with menstrual cycles, the hormonal shifts are exaggerated too - fun ...

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Hanna Keiner (she/her)'s avatar

Thank you for such a kind comment! I guess it helped that I was really feeling the rollercoaster last week! I still forget that I can’t take on the world and am disappointed and surprised every time when it goes downhill (or goes back up).

Is there anything that helps you remember there will be top of the world days after drudge days and vice versa?

(And yes, hormones! Yet another mystery box factor!)

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Morgana Clementine's avatar

Aah, hearing you on the full on week! I'm afraid the only thing that helps me remember is my partners reminding me... I get so thoroughly identified with the current state it feels it'll never end!

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Morgana Clementine's avatar

Although I'm better at remembering bad days will follow good ones than vice versa, sadly!

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Hanna Keiner (she/her)'s avatar

So interesting! It’s the other way around for me. I don’t remember the bad days and then they hit extra hard when they seemingly come out of nowhere. I have learned to know that bad days don’t last (for me).

I love the reminder that other people can help us remember. I could definitely ask for help here and request the occasional nudge to enjoy the high but be prepared for a low.

Thank you for sharing your thoughts and experiences Morgana!

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