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Nailed it Hanna! The relentless swings you describe here resonate so hard. ADHD is indeed a rollercoaster. Before I was diagnosed I didn't even know I'd bought a ticket, and now I'm diagnosed I don't want to get off the ride!

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Love this, thank you! What do you love about the ride so much that you donā€™t want to get off? I feel so frustrated by it so often that Iā€™d love to hear are more positive point of view.

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Oh I'm frustrated by it too, on a daily basis. But it's a part of me, always has been, and I don't want to change anything about myself. So I've gotta try and harness it. The way I see it, that's the ride.

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Love that perspective! Harnessing it being the ride!

Itā€™s also not lost on me that having a really shitty week resulted in me putting this in words and now it resonates and creates connection.

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I'm totally here for those connections. I feel like there's so much I can learn from other ADHDers.

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Do you believe ADHD is on a spectrum?

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I see it like itā€™s explained here: https://www.instagram.com/p/DA60qdbT_RU/?igsh=MWowYjFia3d6OGpmOQ==

And I havenā€™t thought much about it but I also think itā€™s not static (hence the roller coaster idea). Some of us may struggle more with internal hyperactivity than others but then there are times when thatā€™s even more heightened, depending on circumstances (environment, emotions, hormones, etc.)

Great question!

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Love this. Saved for future reference. I think I have some tendencies for sure.

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I also really like their affirming language (notice difference vs difficulty for example).

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God, youā€™re a great writer, Hanna. Sometimes it really is like youā€™re in my head.

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I donā€™t know what to say! šŸ„¹ Thank you!

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The rollercoaster of ADHD is a wild ride, indeed!

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That sounds like me! I'm glad I'm not a lone with this stuff.

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YES. (to everything but the mascara) šŸ˜‰

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:) thanks Jeff!

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This is the most accurate description of ADHD I've read! Literally on top of the world today after several days of drudge. It feels like I could take on the world - but I know better now ;) And for those of us with menstrual cycles, the hormonal shifts are exaggerated too - fun ...

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Thank you for such a kind comment! I guess it helped that I was really feeling the rollercoaster last week! I still forget that I canā€™t take on the world and am disappointed and surprised every time when it goes downhill (or goes back up).

Is there anything that helps you remember there will be top of the world days after drudge days and vice versa?

(And yes, hormones! Yet another mystery box factor!)

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Aah, hearing you on the full on week! I'm afraid the only thing that helps me remember is my partners reminding me... I get so thoroughly identified with the current state it feels it'll never end!

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Although I'm better at remembering bad days will follow good ones than vice versa, sadly!

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So interesting! Itā€™s the other way around for me. I donā€™t remember the bad days and then they hit extra hard when they seemingly come out of nowhere. I have learned to know that bad days donā€™t last (for me).

I love the reminder that other people can help us remember. I could definitely ask for help here and request the occasional nudge to enjoy the high but be prepared for a low.

Thank you for sharing your thoughts and experiences Morgana!

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